i almost can't do it anymore
I dread coming into work now. When I first started working at this radio station I was so excited. This is what I wanted to do!! Thank goodness for internships! I'm so lucky!
Well, not anymore. When I started here as an intern I was put on "bitch work". This is also known as running the boards for the John Boy and Billy Show, and nationally syndicated redneck crap-fest. I dealt with it. I learned to go to bed very early and get up early. I hung in there, knowing that it would get better. We ended up getting rid of that show and I was basically out of hours because they had nothing for me to do.
Now, they've transfered me to the AM talk station and I'm now running the boards for a nationally syndicated morning talk show called Don Imus in the Morning (which also runs on MSNBC at the same time on TV). It's only slightly better than the JB&B Show.
I've been here well over a year now and all I've done is work morning shows and I'm finally being paid. I wake up every day at 4:30am (during the week) and drag my un-happy ass in here and push 2 buttons, 8 times an hour, for 4 hours.
That's it!!
That's all I get to do. This other job they trained me one was a morning talk show, but it was completely live and right in front of me. I was the producer for a week. Then they took me off of that because the normal guy got out of the hospital and needed his job back. I loved it though. That's what I want to do! I want to produce...
No...I sit here and "produce" by punching a few buttons and then turn to my left and play online and try to entertain myself with MySpace and Fark.com. For four hours...
But alas. I've decided that I want to get my M.A. in Communication Studies in the fall. I don't know what the hell I'm going to do with it. I just know that I need to make a change in my life and challenge myself. My mom doesn't understand it (she thinks that I'm going to hate it and switch to Counseling) and I can't get it past her that for some reason my gut is telling me I should go with Comm. Studies.
I dread coming in to work. I want to tell my boss off because he's so rude to me sometimes. I think he realized he upset me one day and the next day he was up my ass with sweetness...of course. I still can't stand him.
I've talked about all of this before. I've already mentioned that I think that I'm not taken seriously here. I can just barely stand sitting here anymore.
I can't quit. This job is too important. It'll look very good on resume's and I definitely can't burn my bridges. My second job at the ice cream place is going normal. I'd already worked there before and it's just as I remembered it. BORING.
I've only been there a week and I've already "called in sick"...this past Saturday. When I worked there before I NEVER called off so I knew they'd believe me. Of course...I go to work yesterday and they talk about how incredibly busy they were...they day I called in sick. I faked and acted like I still felt bad. Just to make sure.
I'm so bad. I know karma will come back to bite me in the ass. That's what I get. I just didn't want to go!!! Scooping ice cream for people and loud kids that won't stop touching (or even licking!) the damn glass on the ice cream case...is not my idea of a good time.
It's money though.
Le sigh.
Well, not anymore. When I started here as an intern I was put on "bitch work". This is also known as running the boards for the John Boy and Billy Show, and nationally syndicated redneck crap-fest. I dealt with it. I learned to go to bed very early and get up early. I hung in there, knowing that it would get better. We ended up getting rid of that show and I was basically out of hours because they had nothing for me to do.
Now, they've transfered me to the AM talk station and I'm now running the boards for a nationally syndicated morning talk show called Don Imus in the Morning (which also runs on MSNBC at the same time on TV). It's only slightly better than the JB&B Show.
I've been here well over a year now and all I've done is work morning shows and I'm finally being paid. I wake up every day at 4:30am (during the week) and drag my un-happy ass in here and push 2 buttons, 8 times an hour, for 4 hours.
That's it!!
That's all I get to do. This other job they trained me one was a morning talk show, but it was completely live and right in front of me. I was the producer for a week. Then they took me off of that because the normal guy got out of the hospital and needed his job back. I loved it though. That's what I want to do! I want to produce...
No...I sit here and "produce" by punching a few buttons and then turn to my left and play online and try to entertain myself with MySpace and Fark.com. For four hours...
But alas. I've decided that I want to get my M.A. in Communication Studies in the fall. I don't know what the hell I'm going to do with it. I just know that I need to make a change in my life and challenge myself. My mom doesn't understand it (she thinks that I'm going to hate it and switch to Counseling) and I can't get it past her that for some reason my gut is telling me I should go with Comm. Studies.
I dread coming in to work. I want to tell my boss off because he's so rude to me sometimes. I think he realized he upset me one day and the next day he was up my ass with sweetness...of course. I still can't stand him.
I've talked about all of this before. I've already mentioned that I think that I'm not taken seriously here. I can just barely stand sitting here anymore.
I can't quit. This job is too important. It'll look very good on resume's and I definitely can't burn my bridges. My second job at the ice cream place is going normal. I'd already worked there before and it's just as I remembered it. BORING.
I've only been there a week and I've already "called in sick"...this past Saturday. When I worked there before I NEVER called off so I knew they'd believe me. Of course...I go to work yesterday and they talk about how incredibly busy they were...they day I called in sick. I faked and acted like I still felt bad. Just to make sure.
I'm so bad. I know karma will come back to bite me in the ass. That's what I get. I just didn't want to go!!! Scooping ice cream for people and loud kids that won't stop touching (or even licking!) the damn glass on the ice cream case...is not my idea of a good time.
It's money though.
Le sigh.
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browncarmela on
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Katie, I read what's going on with u and i totally understand where you're coming from. I'm pretty much in the same situation as u. I work at Walmart and i've been there for 5 months. At first when i started working there i loved going to work. Now i dread it. I've called in sick and they believed me. I come to work the next day and everyone is asking me if i'm ok or if i need anything. A part of me does feel guilty because i lied but another part of me doesn't. I've already started looking for another job that pays more money. I'm going to college to get my degree and i'm staying ahead in all of my classes. I'm trying to see if there's any way i can graduate early so i can get a job in my field. Not only will i be making more money, but i'll be financially secure. The only thing i can tell u is hang in there until something else better comes along. And when it does, take it. I plan on doing so as soon as something else comes my way. |
Fleur on
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Why don't you use the internship and paid experience to find a more challenging job in the same field? Or, does the radio station hire from with-in? Does your college have a college radio station? In WA state, we have some pretty good college radios... |
katiekate on
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My radio station usually hires from within and they seem like they don't want to give me a chance to do anything. Since I've graduated and I'm not in school I don't have a chance to work at college radio stations. The University where I'll get my master's has a good one, but I won't have time to work at all while going to classes and teaching. I'm just going to have to stick it out until this summer when I leave. |
